Sunday, March 11, 2007
alone ..
Gosh ~ I do not even know where I am gonna start so that I can actually blurt out what I am feeling inside ..
Firstly there doesnt seem to be an aim to blogging when you are constantly ranting about your poor sad miserable life when there doesnt seem to be any response to your ranting and complains. I rather have someone listen and take all my crap but somehow that person doesnt seem to exist. Is it just me, my way of socialising, the way my life is supposed to be or does this actually happen to a lot of people. Whose fault is it that I do not allow myself to get that close to others or is it them not wanting to be that close to me.
^ picture a lot of self doubt^ is it my own fault that I do not have that many people close enough to know exactly what I am thinking on and about deep inside or are my own expectations for a situation like that too high that I always feels alone and no one "close" enough to me?
I bet you dont understand what I am talking about do you ?
Just feel really alone now ..
The fact that time flies by when you are working and you feel you have not really achieved much doesnt really help ..
Sigh
Does everyone feel this alone or is it just me ..
Is it all my own fault am I that bad a person
Can someone just be honest with me ?
I want to lead another life this one stinks or at least i think so ..
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 1:48 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words